Wednesday, November 11, 2009
The things people take for granted...
As many of you know my dad took his life on December 21, 1991...one month before I turned 2 years old. I always sit back and think of the little things like would I have been a daddys girl, what was he like, if he is watching over me, and if he is proud of me. I also think about the things like what kind of grandpa would he have been. Sometimes I get really upset that other people who have dads dont take every opportunity to spend time with them, like my little sister. Her dad is alive, use to take her everywhere and try and be the best dad he could be then she started caring about her friends too much and stopped going over there. She doesnt even call him on a weekly or monthly basis. I think I talk to him triple the amount she does. I just hate when this time a year approaches and I dont have my dad here. I wonder why he left me and why it was his time to go? I am so lucky to have such a wonderful husband and watching him with our kids is just amazing. I hope Hailey is a daddys girl, I know she is already wrapped around Chris' little finger. I just hope that they always stay close and that she will have him around always. I want her to experience everything I never got a chance to, I want her to have a daddy to walk her down the isle and keep the boys away(with the help of her big brothers of course), I want her to have a daddy to cry to, and to teach her how to play sports(we all know I am no good at any sports), I want her to have someone to spoil her and give her what she wants when she gives him her little sad face, I just want her to have someone in her life that I never got to. I always want these things for Nathan but we all know being a daddys girl is something special. Hopefully my dad is watching down on me and my family, which I believe he is. I pray and talk to him almost every night. I just wish I could call him when I needed too. Here are some of the only pictures I have of my dad...
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Aww, Heather, I am so sorry. ((((HUGS))))
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ReplyDeleteyou are right, I miss my dad too and maybe the little time w/your dad is what god think you needed before it was his time...I wish soooo much he were here.....but these are the mysteries in life...I too think people should not take their parents for granted because they could be gone in a flash. We love you and will always be here for you....God willing... Aunt Tina
Oh Heather, your post brought me to tears. And I am so sorry you never got to know your daddy. I am so glad that you have Chris as a wonderful husband and father and that Hailey will grow up to be a Daddy's Girl. You are such a selfless person, and deserve only the best in your life. I truly admire your positive attitude and how you always go out of your way to make others feel good. That's a rare trait, and you should be proud of yourself for being a great mom and someone that a lot of other people look up to. By the way, even though you never really got to know your daddy, I think you inherited something I call the "happy gene." Just looking at all those pictures and seeing how happy he is reminds me a lot of what I see in pictures with you in it!!
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